It was a sad SAD day!

Well it has taken me a couple of days to come to terms with what happened, DAYS to deal with it before I could really even do this blog... what happened do you ask?

Well to start off NO ONE is hurt so it really isn't that bad BUT to me it is a HUGE deal... on Saturday after I did the post about the Lightning Bolts last game and party I was in the process of transferring our pictures to our external hard drive for back up. I figured its been awhile since this was done so I should do it now. Well THAT WAS A MISTAKE! While in the process of doing so I made a mistake and accidentally deleted ALL of my pictures on my computer (mid transfer I might add ~ literally there was like 45 minutes left (we had a lot of pictures transferring)).

And here comes the panic attack... I have NEVER felt this way before, I got all shaky and this feeling in the bottom of my stomach started coming up like I was going to throw up and the tears started rolling. I would like to say I held it together but I didn't. And sadly Ry wasn't much help at first. He has no sympathy for situations like that because he deals with it all day (I thought that he would). THANK GOD that most of the pictures transferred before the shit hit the fan BUT some of Logan's pictures did not. (I also must add I have a distinct system of keeping my pictures, by kid per month from birth... so I have all of Logan's separated by 2007, 2008 and so on, then by month so Jan, Feb, etc...) Well I lost pictures of him from May to September of 2010... the ONLY ones of him that have not previously been backed up on other sources!!!! LOST meaning cannot get back!

Ry tried to help... later by doing a system restore back to 2 days prior... nothing! Then per a friends suggestion did this program called recova.com which got some but not all files back. This is after I went through 9K files that it recovered and pulled 2K of those that I still have to go through but most of those are blank files.

Needless to say I am a little devastated! Not as much as I would have been if those were of Reese; not indicating that she is more important than he but most of his pictures are backed up elsewhere. Reese on the other hand was not backed up anywhere and those are all the pictures that we have of her from her birth until now... everything! So yes I am sad that I lost some of my little Bubba but GRATEFUL that they were not of my Peanut because that is all we have of her!

I know it is crazy to cry over something so silly but to me pictures are my most important material possession, they are my memories... something I will cherish and reflect on throughout the years and to me it is devastating to lose any of them. (Thank goodness I made Grandma copies of most everything so I will not be completely lost... and thank goodness for this blog because I can pull a lot from here as well).

So yes, in my world that was a sad SAD day... but I learned my lesson and will be backing up pictures more often!